It comes full circle…

History…Do we learn from it or repeat it? Hopefully learn. That’s why we watched as British soldiers studied the battles at Normandy. What could they take away and use in this life time? What can we take away and learn from?

We moved to this city in 2003 young and full of spunk. With dreams. We moved here with $30 in our pocket but had hope that things would get better. Matt decided he was done working as an Engineer and I can’t blame him. That job took the life out of his eyes, I knew that. I didn’t want that for him or us. So he started a small company, Commercial Equity, with two smart entrepreneur buddies like himself. They started in coffee shops with meetings and ideas while I worked to help us survive.

Soon they had a goal, a plan and a building. They bought an apartment building built in the 50’s completely renovated it, putting 60 to 70 thousand dollars per door. With finishes that did not usually come standard: granite counter tops, stainless steel appliances, hard wood floors, glass tile, balconies and roof top deck with views of the city skyline. These finishes most developers would charge the buyer 2 or three times their cost but not us. We made our places affordable and they flew off the shelf so to speak. I quit my job and became their office manager/bookkeeper.

Things flourished in the next several years, more buildings were purchased, investors called us to see if we had a spot for their money, foreman and laborers were hired, partners brought aboard, realtors commissioned, work trucks purchased, I got an assistant, we got a fancy new name and purchased a fantastic office building .

It was awesome. We were the talk of the town. We hired a marketing expert, were written about in countless papers, threw amazing parties and still we grew.


Things are not so glamorous now. Blame it on the market. Blame it on growing too fast. Blame it on being too nice. Whatever or where ever the blame lays it doesn’t matter. The reality is the company is down to partners and two hired employees; we moved out of our fabulous office building and are scraping by. No money, no income, s.l.o.w. sales and slashing prices to get out.

My heart is heavy. I had hoped by now at our age and with a baby we would be financially stable. Not millionaires not even hundred thousand-air. Just secure.

The good news: I have my family, we have a home, and we will survive. My husband is smart and a hard worker and for what ever reason he was lead to get his broker license a few months ago. All is not lost. I believe they (we all) have learned. I believe some day we will have financial stability. I have a hope and a dream I won’t let die. Things will get better, I can feel it.


4 Responses to “It comes full circle…”

  1. ggsmama Says:

    I’ll be the first peep to peep here my friend. I am sorry your heart is heavy. I understand the woe. But I know you both are so smart,so capable, still so young, and will be fine. The economy is to blame, nothing else. Ebb and flow, success will visit again soon. Matt is right to do what he loves; life is too short not to take that risk and be in a field that doesn’t make your heart sing at least a little, a least while it lasts. And you, you are so positive always that I am actually glad to see you are human and sometimes have a down thought; I admire you.
    Everyone I know, us included, is feeling the pinch right now. I don’t at all mean to minimize your particular situation as I don’t know the gory details, but just to say I hope things will turn again for everyone.

  2. I’m sorry to hear about this, but I am glad to hear that you are hopeful. I’ll be praying that things turn around and you reach the security you desire.

  3. Melissa Says:

    I am so sad to read this, Erin. I am so sorry for you and your family. But our husbands sound a lot alike. Hard workers, smartest people we know. So while you call this “full circle,” perhaps this is not actually quite the closing of the circle! But you are so wonderful to support your husband in following his dream. My guy also had a job once, not that long ago, that took the joy out of his life. We went out on our own on a wing and a prayer. Oh, and a heck of a lot of hard work. And it all paid off. You know that saying about doors closing and opening? Sounds like that might be at work here. I bet you whatever is waiting just around the corner is going to be worth walking through that door for!

  4. Everyday Yogini Says:

    Erin, transitions of any kind are scary and difficult. I’m so sorry that your heart is heavy- things will get better, because all that jazz about doors closing, others opening. Totally true. I’m so proud of you for standing behind your husband in following his dreams. And just think how wildly happy you will be when you are on the other side of this particular challenge… so pay attention to the texture of where you are now so you really understand the content and happiness when it arrives.

    Thank you for sharing this, Erin…

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